i m suppose to do m RMTR. which i know i may be haughty to think that i should be relatively easy to do. But yar. I m not starting yet. Why? coz i cant focus. my mind's wondering. practically flying away from me. So many things keep happening thsi few days, these few weeks. And actually, since this sem started. Made me start to think. I miss blogging. coz blogging helps me clear my thots, helps me reflect as i type. But, haven been able to do so.
Its tough. This sem is tough. But i can cope. so far. But, besides coping with everything that's thrown to me. I start thinking. Is this what i want to do? Why am I doing all these stuff? I mean we always have a choice to do things. So why choose to do things that doesnt make you happy when you do it? Or did i think that those choices that i made would make me happy? Now i m lost. Or izzit just that i m not doing what GoD wants me to do. Thus, this result.
But i know 1 thing. If you have chose to do so, you gotta take responsibility of your choice and go all the way with your choice.
I learnt that, you shouldnt do things for the sake of doing, choosing things for material reasons but always ask, would GoD be happy if i do this, then, would i be happy when i do this.
BUT, then again, sometimes, GoD gives us things that we don't like either. HIAZ..........
Luckily. 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
I just wanna stop making bad decisions, stop doing what i m not suppose to do. stop doing the wrong things, stop disappointing others, stop not living up to expectations, sto making people angry, stop making people upset.
Start loving GoD, start loving people, start loving myself.
