Wednesday, November 28, 2007, 11:36 AM
yes, very long never blog le. have been busy...with..........RED CAMP!!! apache oei!!! haha..
love apache. got alot of things of red camp to blog bout, but right now, its not the time. Coz, i m lyk 10 minutes away from my cip presentation. so why am i bloggin? i have no idea. haha..to calm nerves?? haha..after cip, i wan go do my bmgt!! i really wanna do my bmgt and finish it. its really nagging at the back of my head!! after i completed bmgt, i ll be able to go watch movie on fri..and i can study larr..haha
anw, its now just before dance, i had this window opened since cip. Its now over le..was not too bad bahh..juz had DG with 3 additional ppl!! shaine, clare n belinda. we were doin CE..
haha..change of thoughts again, coz its now 11.10 and i m at hm le..zzzz i reallt should do BMGT rite...eeeeee v sian lorr..alot to do. but then again, i have alot of time tmr!! lol..if i can finish it tmr i ll go watch enchanted on fri!!i really really really wanna finish bmgt soon. but so why am i bloggin and not doin???
Wednesday, November 21, 2007, 10:07 AM
haha..i said before rite. once lessons start and back on track, i ll start to blog more.haha..just see lorr. after my hol break, i blog so much more in nov..haha..
today's red camp!!!!!!! cooollllllll.......i didnt bring my red camp shirt larr...coz my bag already have so much stuff...sian..i really should have brought lorr..wahhhhhh..........
then i forgot that my class start at 930. i reach sch at 830 larr..so went with choo to go crash redcamp awhile..looks SUPER cool super fun lorr...cant wait to go..sad larr..nvr bring my shirt..
wahh..its alrdy 1020..gotta pack..gonna go le...
for SA outreach..coolll
this happens every fortnightly.....
Tuesday, November 20, 2007, 9:44 PM
VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV AAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DAMN. I NOE I SHLDNT BE LYK THIS, BUT IS SUPER SUPER SUPER FUSTRATING...
its almost lyk a weekly or monthly routine. and i still dont get it. i lyk it just the way it is. i really..argh. fine. it shouldne tbe lyk tt, but i m ok with it, i m comfortable with it . so?
why is it that everything has to be so freaked up neat? so what if i take a longer, much longer time? that s because i have different piorities. and it just happens that being neat ISNT ON THE TOP OF MY LIST. so ? big deal. and you have to scream you lungs out. and you are sick. cant even take care of your own body. i dont understand y do you wanna get mad over such stuff? yarr, you say that you have been controlling, that you have been sayin..say that since i noe, why cant i do it, why do i wanna make you blow. but HELLO, i dont mean to. i just dont think the same way!...zzzzzzz..............argh...........
but yes, i will clean up my room , will pick up my stuff. coz no matter what, i still have to honor you even though i sometimes disagree..violently disagreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, November 18, 2007, 7:57 PM
wahh..affirmation. haha..GoD must be thinkin..that blur blur ariana..always canot hear me de..dunoe if she got my msg or not..better say one more time..haha!! lol..jkjk..
but yarr..i think sometimes i do close my ears and cover my eyes that i dont know that GoD has a message for me..haha..but this time..i got it. i got it..haha..i guess being quieter at times and not talkin so much you can hear more. haha..yes...i ll go i ll go..i ll take this chance to be used by GoD..i ll go for Gen12ii..juz tt i still have no idea where ta go..DaDDy really shld tell me all at once and not make me think too much of where to go..i alrdy have so much white hair le lorr..wahahaha..
today i went for 2 services..back to back. frm 9-11 then 11-1..haha..but with different ppl..but love them all the same haha..miss jess though..she nvr seat with tess n me...but nvm.at least i had a chat with her b4 we went in. then 11 was chi service. hmm..communion service is abit diff frm the last time i went. But i still more used to end version lar..haha..but anw, i got free lunch..haha..and MOF..haha..love jap food..had a totally fun time. laugh non-stop.. and its lyk have the feelin of gg for lunch with my gorgor n jiejie lyk tt..haha..then again, they ARE my gorgor n jiejie..haha..funny larr..Thanks fer the lunch siaz..even though i noe i was abit off..got things on my mind..but thanks for all the help too!!haha.. hope you guys had fun after i left..haha..
can see that me in a gd mood rite...
wanna noe why??
wahahahaha...CIP PBL proposal is 65% done!!yay!!!!!!!! woohoo!!! lalalalala...and my grp has also finished preparing for macro article tmr..haha..
then again, i still have FaB journal not done yet..and alot of other stuff not done yet..haha..but luckily, its only 2030..i still have time...
Saturday, November 17, 2007, 8:58 PM
yupps.. thank GoD for jamesK. haha..my brother in christ, so can call gor..haha..i seriously think that DaDDy loves to use gor ta tell me stuff. Lyk last time when i was drifting and kinda lost, down spiritually after a leap, he sent jamesK ta give me a nice reprimanding and an inspirational talk. i think even jamesK has forgot bout tt. so then, went ta yhope, say things at a different light. i think i grew and saw quite alot even though i didnt stay long. and his blog nvr fails to inspire. haha..even though he is right, i may not know what he s thinkin when he blogs, but its always pushes me on spritually. haha..even though i noe lots of ppl say his blog v christiany and stuff..gettin weird..but i wanna say Great Job, coz that's not weird but being the salt and light.
haha..so yupps, ytd, went ta read gor's blog. really hit me. GoD loves to use his blog to tell me stuff. lol..yes. if i could i would. i ll go for Gen12ii. i ll stop procrastinating. i ll stop giving excuses. i ll use this chance to experience GOD's love..and grow up. now the thing is to wait for GoD's command to tell me Where to go.
, 8:28 PM
i owe my ahma an apology. really i m sorry. I guess, i really aint as open as you, as open as i thought. but then again, it was only you. But then, haha, you know what, you aint the first one. anki and i had been thru this before. and it ended fine. haha. and now, i thank GoD that we are gonna end fine. and it s really your effort. ur patience for me ta open up. i think fer me, some ppl i click v fast, then feel too fast, will abruptly stop de..kinda lyk anki and ya. but fer me is lyk natural, cant really stop. with me and anki, we both juz drifted, grew closer ta other friends, then got back. haha..but fer ya, i feel really bad fer sayin this, but i felt at tt moment, you were kinda sticky. yarr...sorry...but now, thank GoD fer everything lar..haha..sorry fer being so weird..oh yarr..thanks fer crapping today. really needed tt stress relieve..haha..
i m usually NOT lyk tt
Wednesday, November 07, 2007, 2:52 PM
i aint in a gd mood AT allllllllllllllllllllll.............heavy day after a heavy night..
had a nice long talk last night. very thought provoking.. but still..i guess, many people are very different when their alone and when they are with others. and, ppl really do tend to have thoughts that we never know that they would have. you really really cant judge a book by its cover..somtimes things are hidden sooooo deep you never know what it is..
juz made me think that i may have done really wrong stuff to make ppl feel really bad. and i had actually been angry over things that i dun even have a right to be angry over. and me actually... and...made me think...hiazzzzzzzz.........
and..ytd and today got few ppl chatted and talked to me online..hate it..i know i shouldnt use that word n i aint allowed to..but seriously. i hate it..and...i mean, i dont hate it when ppl talk to me. coz i love talkin to people. and i love to talk. but, ytd and juz now was when something juz keep appearing..arghh...i really dont like it...suddenly i feel lyk juz digging a whole and hiding in there for a long long long long time...arghh....luckily for me, i aint got any sch today.........
call me??
Tuesday, November 06, 2007, 10:55 AM
i m waiting for bmgt tutorial to start..doin presentation. kinda crappy, but nvm, juz give me my marks. haha..today, went for prayer meeting, 7am as usual, but apparently , we keep reachin later and later. you can see from where we sit. from the first time right inside, to the middle to sitting at the door more often. haha.. i love the fact of spending time with GoD first thing in the morn and eating breakfast with my fellow Crusaders..haha..
yay..presentation over..all the shooting is over...she keep asking and shooting as qns larr..nvm..ask all you want, juz give me the marks i need can already. haha..the grp for bmgt is up me ned jiawen yaowei donovan..great. can start doin proj alrdy. and i think actually, bmgt proj quite easy. as in, as compared to the dreaded CIP..eeeeeeeeee.......i need to outsource...i need help.!!!!!!!!!
oh yarr..had a nice little chat with my crusade snr in the morn...wads wrong with sJ??i love it ok..i love to sJ. its my entertainment in life lorr..so one of my criteria for my stead nxt time (as learnt for BMGT juz now) has to be able to tahan my sJing..wahahaha.. so that means i have to ditch someone..but nvm larr..he wun feel hurt. coz he has ml wad....LOL..wahahahahahahahahaha
Sunday, November 04, 2007, 10:57 PM
just give me another 5 minutes. i ll really just stay for 5 mins..then i ll go do my tutorials...
really not in the mood. dunoe why. there 's somthing wrong. and i dunoe what is it...damnnnnnnn
i think i starting to spot the similarities. i start to go moody or i dunoe when i m not ard ppl fm sch. be it sec sch or poly. its the same. reason?
i dunoe larrrrrrrrrrrrr.......
i really dun like to be an only child at times like this when i start to think too much even though i have so many other things to think about........
, 12:07 AM
read che's blog, and i m back to post. she 's in the being alone mood. which i think is really lyk the opposite of what i m feeling now. damn, i shld go do work. coz i have lots to do and many things to organise and take responsibility of. but noooo...here am i bloggin. why? coz i dun wan ta juz go slp now. it would really be great if someone just picks up the phone now and call me. and juz talk. i m really in a listening me..not in a talking mood. juz noe-ing that ppl are around..i dunoe larrrrrrrrrr...........zzzzzzzzzzzzz.........
and lyn's kinda ignoring me..why? and she s in that total emo and weird off state. lyk something big happened. or at least alot of things happened to accumulate to her current state. i wanna be a gd friend to be there for her as she has been there for moi..but, if she doesnt wanna talk bout it, i guess i cant do anything bout it then. juz let her be bahh..juz that she eva needs someone, she has lots of us ard her..
a possiblility that the great ol' ariana is thinking too much coz she misses her darlyn too much and starts to think silly..which of course is juz highly possible larrrr..haha..
juz..i dunoe. i guess i juz have to cont let GoD do his work and stop complaining before i see the fruits of HiS labour..
Saturday, November 03, 2007, 11:19 PM
what's 缘份? in other words, fate. as in seriously, are christian's allowed to believe in that?
i still dun know yet. so lets use bgr as an example, the guy and gal yao you 缘份 then will be together? can we say that? or what??i m still blur...nvm then..
anw, that's just a long term unans-ed qns..nvm bout it..
anw, i think i have lost my panasonic earphones. the one that i really lyk..even though the wire is abit shorter..after packing my table, i still cant find it..damn.
i starting to not like my post. its so short and disconnected..dunoe what ta say...
lyk nothing to say, but yet, lyk..dunoe..dun wan be alone? wait, what does that have to do with bloggin. bloggin IS talkin alone wad.me getting dumber each day!! wheeeeee.........maybe i should go to ech. fits me rite. stay with dumb ppl.. make the next generation dumb with me..wahahaha. and i m childish enuff to fit with them. and i have exposure to it. hmm..should i change course?
Thursday, November 01, 2007, 10:25 AM
i m in class now. feel very bad for doin this coz i love FaB..ms ng IS a gd tcher..but, i think, i wanna write abit of stuff..suddenly, i got sooo much stuff to do, its horrible. The day the JC ppl start their hols, is like the day i get all my projs..And i have so much work to do.. i haven even started studying yet. i feel so slack, its bad. and i have slacking in lectures, not paying attention. and bmgt with joshie-S aand danielK in my Lt, i dun pay attention, i Cant even pay attention.lol..man...this is scary. Ms ng is playing Bingo for the groupings. she is scary siaz...