Thursday, October 30, 2008, 3:49 PM
blogging. again. since when do i blog so often? oh yar, since i do not feel like doing anything else. i m at crusade room. again. keep coming here these few days. lets see what else do i still need to do. I have finished InE qns, but i still have 2 Cocoa trees report to do. and of course. TDM. something that i have been advoiding. I can also start on SPM and HBM tutorial 3. and my jap homework and spelling test. and SPM newsbites. and ECD proj. see.. there's so much to do. but ariana. being a pig. is living in denial!!!! shake head shake head. I shall attempt to finish my 2 other cocoa trees report. so that it would not be nagging down on me. Then, see if i have mood for TDM. If not, i may see if there are other things...ha ha ha..
and, people relations.........
Wednesday, October 29, 2008, 10:47 PM
just did spm's art culture thing. could see that Mrs Lim was really quite disappointed with the class. thought through the art piece. realised time and again that i can really be an art person. As in, i like to see behind the art pieces, kinda decipher what the artist wanted to express. but oh wells.
really kinda sian. I have InE to do, and 3 cocoa trees report to do, and of course, TDM tutorial. but i m not doing. i m blogging. Doing everything that i can to avoid doing work. irresponsible. BUT, irresponsible against myself.
Responsibility, Commitment, Faith. Big words. Easy to comprehend, Hard to shoulder.
these 3 words weigh down alot on me nowadays. Realised that the older you grow, the more these words become attached to you. like glue. like that company you never wanted. Yet, even though i know its tough, i still wanna stick to it. can bear to tear away from them. Coz, partially in me, i know its the right thing to do. and i also know that, if i can accomplish, its not me. Its GoD. and hopefully, he ll be proud of me then.
dunoe what to say.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008, 12:45 AM
boohoo hoo..its late. i just finished tlaw tutorial. and only my part. its tough. revised tlaw. ha! i feel so hardworking. but i wasted alot of time before starting. i really have to wonder who long can this last. i m tired. really. like really. of all the mess that has been going on in my life now, i m tired. tired to be constantly on my feet, worried that any thing may go wrong. and there are so many things going on. I m so tempted to just break away, give myself more time, and more space. and also, allow myself to study more and focus on tutorials and lectures a tinnie bit more. i m still so lost for ECD. and i should really do InE so that i dun need to go to sch on thur. see the amount of work that's pilling up on me? its a wonder why i m still here. i just need to rant. thank GoD for hols.
Saturday, October 18, 2008, 10:35 PM
first week of sch, just ended. SPM proj is done and over with. but there's still SPM for next wk. but its not graded, so not too bad. then, this week is really pretty hectic. like alot of stuff all so messed up. and here i am, once again reading my chi romance novels, getting away from reality, yet making me think alot, all again. think about myself. haha..everytime i read those stories, i would tell myself, i really dont want to be so stupid. that, she/he's really silly. tai sha le. he bi ne? but then, it seems like the road that one has to pass. that one has to go through hurt before understanding. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Friday, October 10, 2008, 11:02 PM
super tired after 5 days of camp. 3days of TRM camp + day0..then last day of crusade camp. slpt for bout 18hours before pulling myself outa bed. and had a disruption just after 3 hrs of sleep, illias called to explain some stuff.but honestly, at that moment, i didnt really care. slp was more important.
lets talk about camp.
TRM camp. it was really rather successful, everything really wrapped up nicely. it was really great. the year1s went of really happy. I really feel that they would go on telling the others, it was their lost not coming for the camp. That they did not expect to have as much fun/learn as much as they did. (seeing how they all appeared when they actually arrived for the camp) and as for me myself,i learnt quite a bit. i felt that i gained more than the yr 1s had, and thru this camp, learnt more about people.
just goggle blogsearch TRM camp, it really gives you a sense of accomplishment coz that's where all the true feels and thoughts are expressed, and you see alot. I thank God for that. Really touched when Troopa gave ivan and i stuff they just bought. Really didnt expect that coz they went missing after lunch, had to call them to hurry back, and ivan was like, where they go sia, why nvr look after them and stuff... so was really happy lar..haha
and, i love the camp committee. even though there were so much drama, so much up and downs in the entire camp, this is the 1 camp that ended soooooo well. really, kudos to the planning committee.
Next CRusade camp. went there rite after TRM break camp. Really have to THANK GOD. He really path my entire journey there. how can it be coincidence that i meet joel rite after i break camp, then he told me that they were getting a ride from daniel's car. then they picked me up otw. Without them, i really didnt know how i was gonna make it dere. and when i reached, it was like at the perfect timing. felt the presence of GoD just a in after i stepped in. it was OVERWHELMING. had to knell down to pray. i have to admit, i did tear a lil. ha! then after that, felt SOOOOOO welcome there. like everyone i knew was like, ARIANA! YOU MADE IT!!! like, sooo glad you came. I TOTALLY felt like i was right AT HOME. like i finally came back home. josh simon literally picked me off the ground and swing me up. i was really glad that i went, despite the fact that i really needed my sleep, i went, and despite going for less than 24 hours, i was RESTORED. i was. it really didnt matter bout the hours you spent there, or the number of sermons you hear, is about GOD, and Him touching your heart, and YOU, with your free will that HE gave you, and allowing Him to restore you.
Thank you GOD for ending my hol in such a fruitful manner.
my pics from cam whoring in both camps will be gotten soon!
Sunday, October 05, 2008, 4:59 PM
damn bored, if i didnt nap in the bus, i think i should be dead beat by now. suppose to be damn tired, coz didnt really sleep much i guess. coz i keep watching videos!!! oh no! and now i m back into korean. its like once you start on one lang, you ll cont and watch all the others, until you get a lil bored of it, move to another lang. i m just done with US series, and i really dont like to wait every week for the new episode, so i m stopping, until this season ends, then i ll d/l and watch..cant wait for gossip girl, prison break, heros...maybe i can d/l and watch grey's a for now too..wahahaha..thus, korean for now. i think i may slot in a few jap along the way, then back to tw, coz i think the new upcoming shows may not be tt bad. wait for them to come out first.wahahahaha..
and actually, its day0 for trm camp, not doing much..and......i decided, i m going for crusade camp. haha..last day to be exact. as wad seth said, even if i miss out on the actual programme, still can go there just to spend time with them and chat mahhh..miss them quite abit. really..haha.
acutally, it doesnt seem that bad if sch starts..
Wednesday, October 01, 2008, 2:12 AM
i m going to type this entire entry without opening my eyes. so pardon me if you cant read the entire thing at all. coz my eyes really damn tired lar. was playing with html juz now. i finally figured out how to have all the different parts like my nlog where you click and can have profile, entry, chat etcetc. so ny eyes really damn tired!!!1 and its so dreaking late le larr! i m suppose to be damn tired too. omg. ytd i cycled SOOOOOOOOOOO much larr! wah piang, i actually cant really cycle. and its been a SYOER long time since i cycled. and....guess how long did we cycle ytd? we cycled at least (opening eyes to make sure type the right digit)......25km!!!!!! OMG (close eyes) we cycle from changi vullage all the way to the campsite which is near tanah mera nscc...and we cycled in the rain for he distance back lorrrrrrr.......OMG then stull rush bck to give tuition..and then tdy,pei my mum and my aunt coz they not working...and...... i went out at 11, reach hm AT 10. WALKED/SHOPPED FROM ORCHARD MRT to dhouby ghaut..please take not tt i cycled a killer distance and track nite wlk studd the day before.
(open eyes to stare at all the mistakes)
*cant be bothered to change. tired..gonna crash soon....nites