Sunday, December 31, 2006, 11:46 PM
wahahahahaha...i m typin 14min b4 midnite!!!..haha..hhmmm..shall look forward to the new year ahead with a happy mindset..um..the correct word is optimistic..haha..hhmm..aj..k lar..hv so many ppl goin together..shld ba fun lar..then on the 5th feb then decide lor..haha..shall leave all of this in god's hands..if everything is suppose to be this way..then let it be lar..haha..put all the insecurities aside..and juz..yar..b the way we usually are..haha....anw..its the new year!!wahh....hm...count down 8 mins..i shall blog excatly at midnite..wahahaha..hiaz..still dunoe wad to study next year lei..how...and aj's orientation..dunoe wad it ll be lyk lei..thankfully hv at least polly same grp as me..grp 12..then hv rach and anki together in panthara..haha..hhmm..mayb can see pri sch friend? haha..make new friends bah..but will i stay at aj?haha..see bah..its 00:00 le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, December 27, 2006, 10:30 PM
PPL!!! pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls do not or stop thinking that i m an emotional n depressed kid...i aint!!! i m a very cheerful n super optimistic person..ask che or lyn or anki..or any 8amer..i really am..haha..n i love ta laugh..k..really..mayb is just tt i lyk ta blog when i m a tinnie bit down coz i m lazy ta write in my diary..really...wahaha..yupps...yar..i meant it when i said i dont lyk crying..so yupps...
anw..xmas is over..n what does that mean?....>>>>>sch's gonna re open soon!!! wahahaha...hhmmm..goin aj.with lots of ppl..i guess it wont be too bad. at least i m goin there with my grp of friends..n its been a busy yr end..goin out with ppl..family gathering, 8amer gathering, last class gathering of the yr..friends gathering..its oso gonna be a busy count down till the next year..but i think i have done enough shopping..spent enough to last me for the next yr..wah!!!..and its all thanks to my aunt..my 2 days of shopping..buying everything i want..lots of stuff cancelled frm my wants list..haha..hhmm..tmr ll be goin watch eragon with my dad..then goin ta meet che polly c yiling n lyn..then go the yingzhi's hse for a last 4606 meeting i guess..i ll really miss this class..had lots of fun there..more then wad i expected..dad's chasing me...will cont tmr morn!!!! bye...!!!
or yar...SMILE LAUGH!!!!!
Thursday, December 21, 2006, 8:46 PM
rmb when i said i wanna cry but i cldnt? i meant it..its not depression or anything..REALLY..i just feel that you can relieve alot a stress through crying instead of keeping stuff all bottled up inside you. coz i was seriously tired and stressed. i really needed a good break and a good rest..but i cldnt..i feel so super cold hearted and hardened..no matter how hard i tried..then resorted to watching sad shows..i realised that i nvr cry in all the sad parts..parts that i knew i would have cried in the past..then tried..tree of heaven...korean drama..its good..if you like those touching shows..its really super sad..if you're like che, i bet you'd cry in every episode. but for me, sadly, i cried only in the last episode..its really sad. but somehow, deep down, i think i didnt cry because the show was relly touching, but because..i let it out..did i mention before that i like keeping stuff to myself? i really like to do that..i can look at something..and go into deep thoughts..but i dun really share them..esp my opinions..i think..but anyway..yar..just as i was watchin the show..[on you tube..it has the whole series..haha..] god works in his miraculous ways..god send me a really good friend..someone that i really really trust to talk to me..i seriously do not believe in conincidience..how is it that i happen to be watching the sad show at that time and happen to feel like changing my blogskin..and some how feel like putting it on my msn nick..and be online the same time as him..and he initiated the conversation that i could pour out all the crap to..really sorry i spilled all the crap on you..super sorry..but..thanks a million..thanks a zillion to make matters better..but yar..and thank god a million zillion times..he works in wonders..when i called help..he gave it to me at the right time through the right person..through the right moment..yupps..so i let it all out..had a nice time cring through the last episode..but i throughly believe that the next time i cry, i d have a real reason to cry. afterall, i dont think crying is useful. why spend the time crying when you should use that time to solve the problem that has happened?..yupps..so i m bac to my old happy self who believes that crying is of no use..haha..its ironic is it not?haha..
when i was deep in thot, i was thinking, funny how i wanted to cry when i never support crying n i always laugh at ppl who cry for no reason. but i guess, i still believe in that again..since god made me strong, to be more logical then emotional. i really should make use of the talent that he has given to me. to not cry anymore..and i wont.
and yar..smile, dont cry..
smile always..미소,항상,영원히..
너를 감사하십시요,신
p/s..its korean on top..so do encoding for korean..n go to dictionary translation..haha..
Monday, December 18, 2006, 10:24 PM
i just lost my temper..again..but..i m really really annoyed..big time.time n time we want to organise gatherings..but time and again some one cant make it...n when we finally can pick a date..when almost everyone can go..then here comes the spoiler..wahahaha...y am i NOT surprised this would be coming..n worst...he had to be that one particular person that i really needed to talk to and get advice from..but NOOOOOoooooooooo...........he had to be so hard to get..fine...wadeva...argh!!!!!!! i m really really emotionally unstable...wade wade wade wade... this geatherin really meant alot to me..i wld be puttin off two other appointments in my schedule to go..yar..so now, where am i suppose to go? what m i suppose to do?!?! i m really so stressed out at
Y...its such a huge pressure..its sumthing that i have nvr done b4..i noe i have to make the first step, get out of comfort zone..but has it occurred that i aint ready yet? its already v tiring for me to learn to adapt in the new environment n stuff..get to know new ppl..and learn how to react correctly to diff situations..i miss X so much!!! but..i haven been there for so long..ppl there have changed..i ll be a wonder if i m still accepted dere..or when i go bac, i hv to start all over again..i m goin to be exhausted soon...argh!!!!!!!!!!!! i m really really lost....n the hols are ending soon....................................... god give me strength..give me wisdon to make the right decision..
n i ended up in aj.
Thursday, December 07, 2006, 7:47 PM
k kz...i m back form japan n bangkok!!!miss me?? wahahaha...i lazy reply in cbox..so shall do it here..haha..
james: i get it..n thanks for reminding me this again n again..haha..i was confined by worldly problems..i was just really tired...n ok..i was pissed...but yar..thanks...
yx: haha..finally blogged coz finally hv time mah..o levels finally over..than hv 4/6 chalet then prom..so now then hv time mah..did i really sound depressed? juz needed to rest after all the rush n busy-ness mah..haha..n coz my com crash on me consecutively 3 times n i was typin for d-l mah..so was really pissed..n i was typin really impt stuff..so yar..haha..no lar..not depressed not depressed..dun forget i v optimistic de k...lol..k kz..lets go out!! u watch happy feet le mah? i wan go watch!!!haha...
yan: i not sad lar..haha..juz quite angry with com..haha...
anw..i m back...haha..kinda tired..i have been walkin non stop for 8 days..but even so, i still put on weight..damn..i need to excercise...haha..as i was saying..walkin non stop coz didnt join tour grp..was on our own..so walk n took train n walk..haha..wenta tokyo disney!!!!woohoo..i love disney..total disney fan!!!haha..n i ll stay a loyal disney fan...haha..16 yrs n goin..haha..was really fun there..but i think the california one is better..cant wait to go disney world..but i d have to find sumone to go with me..coz wun be goin with mum n dad le..coz they dun wan to go le..hiaz...anyone wan go with me? haha..mayb after alevels..if i m goin jc..haha..oh yar..japan..then i went to the imperial palace..not v nice..nothing much..china's zi3 jing4 chen2 better..then tokyo tower and the attractions there..n sanrio purio land aka hello kitty land..and of course the shopping places of shinjuku, ginza, tama-centre, ueno[where my hotel is]..haha..i did bought stuff back..haha..for other ppl..lol..u wan get it...ask me out..if not i ll give yours to other ppl who ask me out..haha..then bangkok..shopping lar..go bangkok dun shop then do what?haha..i bought quite alot of stuff compared to my parents...but no alot compared to other ppl..haha..i got 1jeans 1white pants 3 shorts 3 shirt 1 jacket 1belt and accessories..n i bought soft toys back..my parents wanted to kill me..haha..coz so bulky cannot stuff in luggage bag..so in the end had to buy those big bags..haha..but the soft toy really really cheap lor..one baby eyore n hello kitty[super big] for 330B which is bout $14+ and if u add in the big bag i bought to contain my toys, its $18...super worth it lar...in spore..one eyore, is already $20+ lei..from mini toons...haha..and oh yar..i almost cldnt come home today lar...the hotel i was staying caught fire...xiao lar..i was having breakfast...then there was smoke..at first i thot it was the kitchen the cook over cooked or sumthing..then have fire..juz put out can le..but it was real..had to go out by the stairs..and i was staying at bayoke suite..and the breakfast restaurant was at the top level. which is the 43rd floor!!!! xiao lar!!!..i was quite calm..over calm le i think..goin down the stairs....as we went lower, the smoke got thicker..so the fire should be at the lower level..so we were lyk walking towards danger..my mind was :"god i still dun want to die yet..help me get out of here alive."in a v calm manner..haha..it really surprised me that i wasnt thinking "god forgive me of all my sins" so that i could go to heaven. i think in my mind i didnt think that i wld die..i had no idea if it was coz i believed god wld get me out of there or i was juz dumb to think that fire smoke[which includes carbon monoxide] wldnt kill. but i really thank god. that i was clam n didnt freak out. that he protected me to get out of there safely with just a slight sore throat and that he reminded me that, accidents do happen and we shldnt take things forgranted. and that, when we pray to him in faith and in whole hearted trust, he ll answer us. as i was saying..in the fire, at the 33rd floor, dad got me n mum out of the stair way n to the lift area..it was really smokey..so we cont to make out way down to the 20 sumthing level..where the smoke was REALLY REALLY bad..almost coldnt see stuff infront of us..then at dunoe which level, a hotel personel made us go out through another stairway...on the way there, we saw a guy lying on the floor, lyk he was in a come..technically it should be called momentarily paralysed due to the poisonous gases lyk carbon monoxide..[ppl, please rmb that if there's 1% of carbon monoxide
in ur body, your're already dead.] and i rmb-ed that i wasnt really shocked..i m really quite surprised with my reaction. i shld hv been really freaked out alrdy. but i wasnt. i took it calmly like it was suppose to happen..as in, if happened,it wasnt surprising, that kind of mentality..am i cold blooded or was it that i have been trained to be to scientific? maybe i am really cut out to be a doctor...lol..damn, that means i d have to comfirm go jc coz if i study dip, uni cant take course to be doc..haha...so yar..the stairs took us to the 10th floor which was the open air carpark..so i climbed 33 flight of stairs..haha..at the carpark..we cld only wait..they gv us water, wet towels n stuff...they oso gv us a wiff of ammonia..i had no idea it was ammonia when they handed it to me..what the heck is ammonia for after breathing in all that smoke?!? wan me die even faster arh..ammonia kills can...so if sumbody knows the use of ammonia after fire smoke..pls tell me..there's a tag board...yupps..then after all the commotion, dad went to get out stuff and we rushed to the airport to catch our flight..haha..we didnt miss it..instead we get to go on an eariler flight..haha...when god closes on door, he always opens another..this line has been ringing in my head for some time le..haha..the fire was in the store room next to the stairways n the lift..the store room was for the wholesale shops in the 1st to 7th floor of the hotel. the fire was in the 7th floor..yupps...so we were actually quite safe in the 43rd level..wait..no..the smoke could have killed us all..nvm..anw, i m safe n alive back in my parents room typing this..so dont worry bout me..haha..but u can express ur concern..or shock..haha..oh yar..dad say when he was in the life on the way down with the baggage, he took the lift with a couple[dad n daugther]..they were actually on the way to the 43rd floor going for breakfast. they had no idea what had happened..lol..if the fire had been big, wldnt those ppl sleepin die?my gosh...nvm..on the bright side..no harm done..the guy i said momentarily paralysed was still up n alive when i say him at the carpark..haha..all is well except sum burnt up clothes i think..haha..
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that's all folks....crunch crunch[from bugg's carrot]haha...