Monday, April 27, 2009, 2:54 PM
ha! I m blogging during TRMK, even though its one of the toughest module, coz of tough tutorial and stuff. But really kinda need to rant abit. Thank GoD for nice classmates who are understanding, and also for classmates who say this right out loud so that there would be no back stabbing.
Weird thinking now. Just read somebody's blog whose situation is so much worst then mine, feeling so sad for her...How can I even think of myself ?
All I can say is that I really want to be the person that eliza prayed for me to be. And just after she prayed for me, I was thrown into such a situation. The fact that I really tried my best to make people happy and keep the peace, and try to make the pros and cons weigh out, I guess, people view things in different light. And there's one thing I really forgot. That not everyone sees the way you do. and you cant force ppl to see that way you want them to. SHUCKS. i totally forgot about that. What i think is the best, may not be viewed the same way. DAMN. I am soooooo sorry. And i guess, this time I was selfish. I could have went over, or yw cld have went over, or even other ways. But i really wanted this grouping. I can justify that I deserved this grp because other groups can stick, why cant I, or I asked them and thot long term long ago and asked, so I deserve it. BUT, WHAT DID ELIZA JUST TAUGHT ME?!? and what did i tell ash just last week? that I would so much want to be selfless then selfish. then what did i just do?!? be selfish. (damn, ash, i hang out with you too much alrdy..jkjk) hiaz. What can I do to save the situation or clear the mess?
and haha..yw did say something. I used to be nice. I like being nice. And I can glorify GoD by being nice. but was i nice just now? it s so much easier to get things done by not being nice. But i that is just not doing things the right way.
That's the post that i written on monday right after TRMK.