Sunday, January 13, 2008, 9:27 PM
rui has stuff to say. lots of stuff. lots of stuff running through her mind. coz lots of things has happened that she wans to record so that she will not forget. juz tt, she dunoe what she can say and wad she cannot. and soo many things has happened that she dunoe how to start. firstly, she's not going for gen12. and she's not longer upset bout it. and she has also come to know why her DaDDy doesnt wan her to be in the ST. her understands and will try her best to wait and learn even though she is one impatient person. She knows that her parents also want the best for her and she also know that actually it is also her fauly for being so different all the time.
rui also did something that she didnt think she would do 2 days ago. She had no idea that she would say stuff that she said. Funny things just happened that way. and now rui is feeling much more comfortable and at ease after saying what she has said. rui wans to give credit to her best friend who has helped her to say such stuff even though her best friend also didnt really do much in the first place.
rui also start to realise that she is actually a v logical person despite having huge reactions to some kind of emotions. She is starting to realise that because she is so logical that can cause her to quite man at times. Also, being too logical has also caused her to lose quite some stuff..some experiences. rui just thinks too much and likes to think too much.
rui loves her friends. all her friends. and she is starting to see who are gaining importance in her life. rui is also realising that her DaDDy puts different people in her life for different reasons and she wans to thank her DaDDy soo much for them.
However, despite the fact that rui thinks alot and loves to think, rui has an area that she doesnt wan to venture into. Maybe rui thinks that by deluving into this area, she may realise that there are things that she regret in her life and that things in her life maybe largely different in she had thought through this area. But even though she doesnt want to deluve into this area, this topic has been appearing in her head quite often. Yet, rui also likes the state that she is in right now. She loves the ease and burden-less feeling she has now. in other words, rui is quite contridicting and abit confused of herself.
Other then all these stuff, rui knows that she will be very busy in the next week rushing her remainding projects and open house and struggling between studying for the upcoming exams and enjoying herself to prevent herself from getting too stressed.
rui has a last point she wants to make. rui believes in friends forever. Close friends forever. rui wans the ppl that she wans this point to be made clear be known to the ppl that should know this point. rui also wans these people to trust her that she will do anything she can that is right to make sure that what she believes will be true.
rui is going now!... ... ... ...
