Saturday, March 31, 2007, 12:10 AM
ppl ppl..look at the time. its the beginning of a new day..lol..wonder why i can type so early??if some of you rmb talkin to me late at msn..and i always have to leave b4 you..you should know that the com is in my parents room. so i can nvr use the com after their bed time..but now. things change. haha..i have my own laptop..all thanks to the use of laptops for studies in poly. lucky me..lol..sad for ppl in jc. and hv no excuse to gv to their parents to get a laptop..lol..its acutally really nice for me. coz that way, i can really record all my thoughts and feelings more easily..not needin to wan to write and cant write..and crap on useless stuff when i see my blog is dying yet not having the mood to type. so life IS startin to turn on the right way..esp since sch is startin soon..i really cant wait.. and i really would like to go out nxt week.. i its kinda like my last week b4 sch.. i have been stayin at home way too much. i think the walls are starting to get on me..or maybe they are just gettin sick of me.
damn. i think i m really pms-ing. or mayb bloggin really helps..i m startin to feel better..more relaxed..was super frustrated just now.and for the dumbest reason. whether to watch or not to watch the rest of the anime..that is not the same as the manga. and to read or not to read the manga and what to do at this point.. blame it on prince of tennis..super nice storyline..but then, my cousin had to tell me that frm this pt(as in the part tt i watch till) its not nice. coz she says not really similar to the manga.i guess, my main complication is whether to cont watchin the manga or juz go start reading the manga frm scratch.coz i read abit of the spoilers. i dont really like the ending i think. and i have that tinniest feeling that the manga would be nicer. coz it still hasnt ended. which is the main thing. i guess..deep down inside, no body like good things to end. that IS why there are so many seasons for so many good shows. just look at seven heaven. it still hasnt ended. and if i nvr rmb wrongly, i think channel 5 started showing that show when i was in p4..at least that s when i start to take notice of the show. but yarr..wbtv is still producing the show. lol..hhmm..i guess i have it planned out. i ll stop watching the show, but i ll rewatch frm start. and at the same time, start collecting the manga. i ll sell some of my shun mong yuan. i will..haha..at least those that..i wun mind not having lar..haha..and oh yar..i need a job..
math n sci, sec maths and sciences. i m willing to teach..charge is ppl if you know ppl rangin frm p1-p6, sec1-sec3 who needs tuition, subjs for p1-p6 includes eng math and sci. sec1-3 maths and sciences. charge is negotiable..so yupps.. call me if you know or need tuition k...
yupps..i think i need to slp le..!!
Saturday, March 24, 2007, 9:21 PM
whheeee...v v v happy that i didnt not go to SAC last min..coz i woke up really late and was really not in the mood of gg outa the house..but i did..wahahaha..i got to enjoy a gd play..and see mi lu bing in person!!!wheee...got their autograph..and took a photo with them..i am a happy happy gal...wahahah..and the autograph is personalized ok..hv my name lor..and is sam write de..wahahaha..lol..i should stop this..lol...
realized i nvr blog for quite some time le..sry sry..i shld really go bac to bloggin at least once a week..i try..but after i get my laptop..i guess it would be easier..haha..if i m not wrong, i ll be getting the fujitsu lifebook S7110ENP..ppl pls tell me if there is an major prob with this laptop..or theres a better bargain...haha..hhmm..i feel much much much much better now..haha..when i got the poly package..i was lyk..wahh..this is it. it was like, my fate is sealed..there is no other choices left. and yar..i m startin to get used to the fact that i am goin poly..now..i m really really excited..but extreamly scared..wahh..its like , you know,ppl would say, you experienced this b4 wad..u went for first 3 months. but its diff you know. for me, first 3 monthhs was still completely in comfort zone. i had ppl that i were close to all with me..mayb with the exception of lyn..but yar..everyone else was there. i didnt hv to go thru the fear of not fitting in or not being able to make friends and being in a foreign environment. i m tellin you. its scary. but o wells..come what may, God is still there. and i god has given me so so so so so so many gd friends who i know [and u better] will be there for me..haha..
i m still thinkin whether to go for npsu camp..and i hv to decided by mon..shld i go..or shld i not..
oh yar..i shld be quittin my job by nxt wk..so if u wan me to serve you..u better come tmr..suntec..surf n turf..lol..i m not sure if i ll be workin nxt wk..its not confirmed..its not that i cant take the pressure or bu neng chi ku..its just..i feel that the environment there is abit more complicated then i expected..and it has made me start to feel that i have to be more open..includin what i can expect in poly life.. so yupps..
lyn...lets go out..while we still hvin hols unlike others..wahahaha
che, anki...miss you guys loads siaz....
polly.....when are we gg out!!! go plann larrr...lol...
beishan..where are the sentosa pics!!!!
Monday, March 12, 2007, 7:23 PM
thanks..a million..i guess, god always really work in ways you can never expect. really.
came online..as usual just so to escape from tv. so ppl always see me online frm 7-8. always..lol..but this time. i came online really really deep in thot. just needed some answers and a sign desperately. really didnt know. cause accordin to my parents were tt i lyk wasnt really happy with postin results..as in..not elated..but abit..how to say arhh..i forgot wads the word. but anw..just really had feelings for aj le. and i know that if i wanted to, i ll definetly be able to make it through. as in. i ll be able to fit it. still be in my comfrot zone and all. but if i go poly, it ll be a whole new different world. a sch with no uniform, new environment, places completely foreign, and, i know i ll definetly grow up. i know that i m childish and quite dependent on others, just ask che,lyn,anki, even polly..as in, anyone who knew me. i need to grow up, but then again, another side of me wld say that at my age, i shld still enjoy this innocent life and dun be so urgent to grow up..but..still..then i thot the appeal dates over le..then got this msg frm friend that still can appeal to aj..tmr kast day..so i m lyk really really really confused..then come online..went blog surfin...saw this...
The Necklace
The cheerful little girl with bouncy golden curls was almost five. Waiting with her mother at the checkout stand, she saw them, a circle of glistening white pearls in a pink foil box.
"Oh mommy please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please?
Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl's upturned face.
"A dollar ninety-five. That's almost $2.00. If you really want them, I'll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday's only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma."
As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. McJames if she could pick dandelions for ten cents. On her birthday, Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace.
Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere, Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.
Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night as he finished the story he asked Jenny, "Do you love me?"
"Oh yes, daddy. You know that I love you."
"Then give me your pearls."
"Oh, daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess, the white horse from
my collection, the one with the pink tail. Remember, daddy? The one you
gave me. She's my very favorite."
"That's okay, Honey, daddy loves you. Good night." And he brushed her cheek with a kiss.
About a week later, after the story time, Jenny's daddy asked again, "Do you love me?"
"Daddy, you know I love you."
"Then give me your pearls."
"Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my baby doll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper."
"That's okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you."
And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss. A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed Indian style.
As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear
rolled down her cheek.
"What is it, Jenny? What's the matter?"
Jenny didn't say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver, she finally said, "Here, daddy, this is for you."
With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny's daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny.
He had them all the time. He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her the genuine treasure. So it is, with our Heavenly Father. He is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that he can give us beautiful treasures.
Isn't God good? Are you holding onto things that God wants you to let go of? Are you holding on to harmful or unnecessary partners, relationships, habits and activities that you have come so attached to that it seems impossible to let go? Sometimes it is so hard to see what is in the other hand but do believe this one thing. God will never take away something without giving you something better in its place.
for me it s like a totally..like thats my answer. i really need to learn..i aint holdin on to harmful or unnecessary stuff..but..i guess..wad it means is..god has better stuff out there for me..and things he wants me to learn and things he wants me to do.so i guess i hv to be strong. can dun need to fear, coz i got god on my side.
