Sunday, February 18, 2007, 8:05 PM
me..you remember them happy chinese new year everyone!!!wahahaha...its the year of the pig..and it has been nice piggint out..but its always the after effects that create the headache..did you guys enjoy the first day of the cny?? apparently ppl my age should. apparently, this year the horsey ppl are supposedly v lucky..so have you kinda lyk playin cards..with just a tinnie winnie bit of money..lykshld be havin fun..haha..but still.. luck aint everything..sometime..such stuff are just a way to escape from all the troubles that you push to the back of your head. really..i dont see the reason for such a big reaction..k..maybe it was really v big..but its big enough for me. i donthvin such a big reaction towards other ppl.. izzit just me being overly sensitive again? but really, the way they said it is like i have made a super big mistake that i could possibly regret for the rest of my life. and like the ppl there will all be bad and i am i grave danger of becomin a failure too. and that i should follow the footsteps of other ppl so as the remain "safe" and remain "sucessful". to me, i still think that s total crap. i m humane and warm blooded person who thinks life is not life if you do not associate with other people. and if you recall, i m a people person. and i belief my pri sch teachers would agree. i ll die if i dont talk..actually, i think my sec sch tchers n friends wld also agree. imagine. a speechless ariana...**horrors!!! my gosh. imagine what the world would become!!...and besides. i ll like to think of myself as someone intellectually capable of handlin my studies and good social life perfectly well unlike other people who HAVE to live life secluded just to be able to score well..and please. what i have chosen is not pinning myself in a small range of choices..to be exact, i can do alot of other stuff from here. but its also thru here that i d be one more step closer to my ultimate goal. this just shows that i aint aimless like you. wait, you aint aimless, just that you aint achieved after so many years in your life. sad. but for me. i have time. and i seriously belief that one fine day. not too far in the future, i d be able to achieve my aim. even though i know its hard, i ll stilll try. if not, i also have a v nice back up plan which aint any worse from my ultimate aim.so just wait and see. xp xp xp xp xp xp xp xp xp.
its just that, i dont like goin to some where which is suppose to make you feel comforted and warm to actually hurt you and make you feel bad. i guess, sometimes things just aint as nice as you thought. but still..you nd to love people the way they are..if god could love a sinner like me, i should be able to love people like me. so right now as i m brain washing myself to love others, i just really wanna thank god for loving someone as socialble as me..someone who cannot stop crappin..and a sinner like me..woohoo....i feel better after crappin so much and being so sarcastic..haha..still cant kick the habit of goin rounds to shoot people..haha..i should stop..before i bang myself in the butt..wahahahahaha
happy cny people..may our chu er be filled with more money, food and laughter..wahahahahahaha..lol.....-.-//
