Thursday, December 21, 2006, 8:46 PM
rmb when i said i wanna cry but i cldnt? i meant it..its not depression or anything..REALLY..i just feel that you can relieve alot a stress through crying instead of keeping stuff all bottled up inside you. coz i was seriously tired and stressed. i really needed a good break and a good rest..but i cldnt..i feel so super cold hearted and hardened..no matter how hard i tried..then resorted to watching sad shows..i realised that i nvr cry in all the sad parts..parts that i knew i would have cried in the past..then tried..tree of heaven...korean drama..its good..if you like those touching shows..its really super sad..if you're like che, i bet you'd cry in every episode. but for me, sadly, i cried only in the last episode..its really sad. but somehow, deep down, i think i didnt cry because the show was relly touching, but because..i let it out..did i mention before that i like keeping stuff to myself? i really like to do that..i can look at something..and go into deep thoughts..but i dun really share them..esp my opinions..i think..but anyway..yar..just as i was watchin the show..[on you tube..it has the whole series..haha..] god works in his miraculous ways..god send me a really good friend..someone that i really really trust to talk to me..i seriously do not believe in conincidience..how is it that i happen to be watching the sad show at that time and happen to feel like changing my blogskin..and some how feel like putting it on my msn nick..and be online the same time as him..and he initiated the conversation that i could pour out all the crap to..really sorry i spilled all the crap on you..super sorry..but..thanks a million..thanks a zillion to make matters better..but yar..and thank god a million zillion times..he works in wonders..when i called help..he gave it to me at the right time through the right person..through the right moment..yupps..so i let it all out..had a nice time cring through the last episode..but i throughly believe that the next time i cry, i d have a real reason to cry. afterall, i dont think crying is useful. why spend the time crying when you should use that time to solve the problem that has happened?..yupps..so i m bac to my old happy self who believes that crying is of no use..haha..its ironic is it not?haha..
when i was deep in thot, i was thinking, funny how i wanted to cry when i never support crying n i always laugh at ppl who cry for no reason. but i guess, i still believe in that again..since god made me strong, to be more logical then emotional. i really should make use of the talent that he has given to me. to not cry anymore..and i wont.
and yar..smile, dont cry..
smile always..미소,항상,영원히..
너를 감사하십시요,신
p/s..its korean on top..so do encoding for korean..n go to dictionary translation..haha..
