Monday, November 28, 2005, 10:04 PM
you noe whats wrong with me?its just that i m always normally not 1 beat slower then other ppl, but 2..really. its just really upsetting tt ur frends can just slip away so easily again and again. especially those really close to you. its really hard. for a person who is able to make friends kinda easily, become close kinda easily, but maintaining them as close friends is a really really hard thing for me to do. i have had so many good friends leaving..as in not really leaving, but drifting away. still friends, mayb good. but not close. i have many whom i m so super close b4, but we now only say hi and stuff. its just just really hard. in i hate it that way. blame it on my character that i am a primary I. its just......arhg...wadeva..nvm..all i hv juz said is crap//
its lyk i m this bac up friend just there waiting if you need. i know this is not true, but i sure feels that way. as usual, is that jealously problem thing again. i hate it. but i cant help it. it ll always be there. its a matter of how i control it. just happened that now i m bursting. i really hate it this way!!!argh!!!!!!!!!!! // wade.. i have no idea whats wrong with me. maybe is that i hv no place to expolde now but here. so maybe i ll delete this when i have finally calmed down. so ppl who read this, i m saying that all this is under an impluse and this things that i m saying here is all exxagrated and possibly not true at all. total fiction. so wadeva u have just read, erase it from your head k?..
thankx
Sunday, November 27, 2005, 8:59 PM
wah...read my own blog..realised the last blog seriously v mean..sry lah..take dat tone back k?..sry la...n my last entries wad..all so super short..lyk bac ta..um..begining of the year? when my blog was dying..yar..nvm..so as i promised sum body..i ll blog bout the trip..but i shall go day by day..i oso wan ta keep record of wad i do oso la..lol..
DAY 1
wah..was super excited when touchdown at bout 12+ ..then the tour guide was late..den had those stupid problems. nevertheless...................................................i no mood blog le..super sian..will try ta blog ltr!!!
Saturday, November 26, 2005, 1:32 PM
i am not the idiot u idiot..i ltr den blog canot meh..c..i now bloggin le wad...!!!..lol..was uploading the pics from the camera to the com mah..siaz..i no time to blog long lei..sry lor..i came bac hv time then i blog a super super long one on the whole trip k!!!!!!! happy??..lol..
Friday, November 25, 2005, 2:04 PM
yohoo~..i aint back home yet..when i went ta my blog..i cant see a single thing!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh...wad happened to my blog??? i ll check it out asap..u guyz cant even read this anw, so why am i typing?..i dunoe either..lol..think i missed out alot in spore..but nvm..luved it here i taiwan too!!..k..i m now at the airport..using their free internet..lol..willl go on board at 14.45...will say more when i get home and my blog fixed!!
Friday, November 18, 2005, 10:38 PM
i ll be leaving tmr morning. leave hse at bout 0630. leaving this place at bout 0830. on my way to taiwan!!! i dunoe lar..in a bit of mixed emotions. alot of stuff happenin...in my mind..lolz..um..i really really need to thankx god. that i kind of helping me put myself in his hands and trust him totally when i needed him. i was really scared, dun dare to tell mum. scared she ll scold me and stuff. i was kinda desperate..den call someone..sis say not around or sumthing..so i was packing..den i was lyk..shld i bring the bible to taiwan?so i went seeking for it. i juz fliped the pages. then i thought of reading Psalm. the book opened at Psalm 143. it goes:
O lord, hear my prayer,
listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
come to my relief.
Do not bring your servent into judgment,
for no one living is righteous before you... ...
it totally hit home.i was, ok, i ll put my self in my daddy's hands and not lie to my mum. and it came out perfectly well. mum was ok with it..and ask me to comfirm with tcher..thankx mr chia..so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much...really.. best tution tcher lah..but can be really bhb..dats y if ppl think i bhb..is he teach de..not my fault! lol..hiaz..lets not dwelve deep again..or i ll start on the "i dun wan ta leave talk.."
yar..den another sad thing..zhou lao shi is leaving us le..actually also not totally comfirm, but is almost a fact le..zhou lao shi is a really good dance instructor lor..to hv him teach us is really fortunate for us. hiaz..dunoe wan talk much bout it, other wise i may get suspended frm sch..lol..jkjk..nthing serious la..juz my comments which i shld shut up about..
2404 goin to watch hp4 without me lar..nvm..i ll enjoy myself..n there's still another problem. i dunoe if i shld go church camp or not..if i go, john will go, tessa may go..if i dun go..both of them wun go..n lync ppl may kill me for that..lol..lets juz leave that aside...and ..................................
tatas~
Thursday, November 17, 2005, 9:45 AM
i got the neos le...
my fav pic!
che-mummy said she thought of mr koh when she saw tis pic!!
act cute..as usual..
mummy 1st time takin neo with braces!!
taday will be my last dae at juz math le lei..sobx sobs sobx!!!!i dun wan lar...i ll miss the place de lor..hv been there since p6 lei...hiaz...i no mood blog le..tatas~
Wednesday, November 16, 2005, 8:46 PM
i shld blog a little more..tmr mayb i shall blog oso..i ll be leaving for taiwan on sat..19/11/05 at 8am. ppl dun miss me k?..lol..jkjk..i not so hou lian pi de lar..yay!..shit..i like got alot ta do lyk dat..suddenly rmb i got ss homewk hv ta hand in tmr lei!!oh no...n i hv stuff to clear, shoes to wash, n i haven pack for taiwan yet!! lao~ma's gonna kill me..n i hv onli less then 5 min till hu chu cai hong..[fell in luv with dat show le!]..arghhh...muz type quicker..yar..on the 19th hv not only me goin outa spore. hv my aunts & cousin n my best friend..lol..got so much to do lor..i got vcds to watch, songs to burn, books to read,n most importantly, stuff to pack!!...n dun forget the pile of homework waiting for me to finish! math hv tons to do..the examples n the number of qns fm txt bk..den chem hv 1 chapt to study and do the theory, and still hv 1 paper to do..n i gota revise mole..den physics hv work sheet n 2 yr end paper fm ilearn. bio hv work sheet n gota go thru the chapts she ran thru..um..geog hv the work sheet. hist hv source-base..n nothing else le rite? correct me if i m wrong..shit..nine le..i gtg watch tv le! byes!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005, 5:34 PM
hmmm...back from bugis..pasta's backed rice tadae like abit too oily lei..eat too much abit...cant upload the pics..the neos all with che-mummy..my lao~ma not home..prob wun be bac early anw..so i can come online straight after once i reach home..teehee..
does anyone of you read xiaxue's blog? seriously, it can be quite entertaining n fun..but i didnt really like the entry she juz posted..its too over for me..[for my age dat is...]she's 20 or 21 i think..so yar..ppl who reads her blog..i suggest read her entry..skip the middle part lar..[dats my opinion..no personal attack...] those who dunoe who she is..i ll be adding her blog in mylinks..can go visit..help her earn by visiting her blog k?..she seems nice lar..loll
crapp!!!!how come cannot burn!!!!!!!!!! wads wrong siaz!!! i m so pissed...i think is the songd got prob lar..nvm..i shall see about that ltr la..i wanta finish bloggin first...canot control la..muz settle the problem..!i think tis bloggin is gonna take a long time..can rip lei...can burn others lei...lyk my jj cd..i shall gv it ta che la..since i burn le..lol..k..i v ai wei le..my burner no problem..i hope..so yar..back to my main topics..
i am suppose ta say i feel really kinda lucky that i still keep this blog and didnt gv up on it. it provides me a space to write in..hiaz...................yar..tadae get back the results of the Career Planning thingy. i shall type out the overview.
Influence is the factor of communication. ARIANA's profile showing high influence is described as a confident, outgoing and gregarious individual[wad's dat!?!] who values contact with other people and the developement of positive relations.
overall, i think its quite true..its so true that i do not want to accept it. its scary...suddenly, i ll rather not know myself so well, so i can like fish around and delve in places that i might be..not gv me a straight path for me to follow. that i m like that, and i must do this. i am bad and this and good at this..i mean..i think people may change. for the good..n for some..maybe the worst. in accordance to what we experience, i may not be how i am now..personalities may change..i mean some traits may be still dominat, but..i mean..i think i dun think i really like who i am right now..too...all the bad points they mentioned..its scary..dat they are comfirming my worst fears of who i am..i mean i accept who i am n stuff..but i wanna be more mature and be not so impulsive n...hiaz.........................but, nevertheless..as they said..i am v v optimistic..so i shall look towards the sun and get blind..lol..
i think me and che-mummy quite nice pair..lol..coz hers is good listener..i am a talker..dats why we nu er n mummi bah..lol..che-mummy is SC..hers also quite true..but some parts abit doubtful..hhm...bout the friendship part..hiaz..shldnt harp bout it la..some stuff works..others dont..so forget bout it!..live life happy..thats the best we can do for ourselves!!!..smiles...
Monday, November 14, 2005, 6:12 PM
閉上眼默唸3遍
希望你理解 愛上你有多難
像童話裡的故事 可惡的安排
明明兩個人都相愛 卻偏偏遇阻礙
非得讓人痛徹心扉 才能證明愛存在
我們 如何找到出路 通往 愛的國度
閉上眼 默唸三遍
Call my name我就出現
(Call my name and I'll be there)
有時候 寂寞難掩 像不醒的夢靨
閉著眼 數了三遍
你應該要出現 但你卻又食言 讓我看不見
(你應該要出現 但你對我食言 不在我身邊)
如果你能明白 這場相愛有多難
像童話中的傀儡 口是心非
以為你找到了幸福 我卻感到好無助
只能笑笑去祝福 偷偷掉著淚
我們 拼命想找出路 通往 愛的國度
永遠究竟多麼遙遠 為何我總無緣 無法好好體驗
愛不像你跟我說的 簡單像許個願
Wednesday, November 09, 2005, 8:37 PM
5 days since i last blogged..i will cont at least once a day de..i promise i wld..n i will..hiaz..i can hear scolding in the background again..hiaz..lets not tok about tis here..nvm..wait..yx called..back..yay!! YuXian..u rawk..[fer now..lol..]mayb able ta get wang zi pt 1 nxt wk!..teehee..n yx say joanne bought the qian jing mei mei show..mayb can lend me..wah..got so many shows fer me ta watch!!yipee!..but..but..her say 2/4 goin ta watch HARRY POTTER on the 21st nov..without me..hiaz..nvm..i ll be in taiwan enjoying myself..who noes i may get ta see some superstar on the street..lol..lame..dat ll nvr happen de..[but hu noes..lol]..
lets talk bout the past 5 daes..
sat..had handbells..wah..its gettin tough man..n hv ta memo lei..hiaz..nvm..its fun..after dat..slack till LYnC. lync was nice last sat. enjoyed the whole praise n prayer session. i cld feel it after so long..hiaz..n got sum guilty stuff..but lets forget dat..
mon was a long day siaz..came home late..n mum was pissed with me not tellin her where i was n makin herworried..i felt so bad k..so super bad....................................................
its bac ta school ta study..i feel lyk studyin..so i shall..for now dat is.........i blogged! byes........
p/s..thankx fer the cds!
Friday, November 04, 2005, 11:28 AM
ok..it has been one week since i blogged HERE..sheesh..forgot what happened in the past week..muz go get my diary..[i mean i noe what happened..but forgot what i wanta blog bout..my memory not so bad yet k..]
mon was chi Os la..obviously..i think on fri i started panicking le..but it wasnt much of use..studied quite alota oso nvr come out wad..study so much, only got 5 words come out..sian..den in the end, 3 out of 5 correct..not bad le la..[i think..] then tue, was my grand ma's bdae..so didnt go class chalet. wenta hia tian lou at pan pacific to eat. yiling say she oso went,bad is in the afternoon. sad didnt c her lor..didnt really enjoy myself though..cause. how ta say arh..the atmosphere was really weird. i oso dunoe why and how. it was juz odd lor..but the food was nice..but i really didnt lyk the desert. YUCK!! fried durian icecream. ewu...really sucky..den went home end up hv tummy ache..muz b tt durian la..my stomach canot tahan..even my mum oso kena..lol..coz she ate the left over dessert fer me[which is almost everything la..]
wed 3/6 bbq!!! i went early in the morning..lyk bout 8 i reach le..play taiti..den improve my majong..wanted ta go wild wild wet..but guyz didnt..dey went swimming..so slack until bbq lor..dne it rained..AGAIN..2nd time le lor..bbq in the rain..but tis time more sucessful. the fire was gd. we held on umbrellas while bbq-ing. at 7 we gals went in ta watch wang zi bian qing wa!!!goodness..but den half way thru, me n che went out ta bbq again..c, aint we nice..lol..it was rather fun la..of all the food, i thot the sotong n sting ray was really good..lol..at 11+, my dad came ta wisk me home..as usual. nvr ever allowed ta stay over nite de lor..hiaz..then ytd wanted ta go chalet de lor..cause dey going ta WWW mah..but, my parents were lyk.."go there fer wad..u nvr go sentosa de WWW b4 meh..go there oso nth ta do.." i noe is coz water..my parnets dun wan me go..scared i drown or sumthing..last time oso lyk dat wad..tld dem i went swimmin in 2/4 chalet they lyk went bonkers oso..hiaz..sad i cldnt go lor..hiaz..but den my parents brought me ta watch SKY HIGH..tat show rocks lor..i think warren peace is really quite cool lor.. but will oso not bad la..layla rocks..luv her siaz..gtg le..if not late fer dance..those hu wan watch movie n dunoe wad ta watch, WATCH SKY HIGH!!! p/s, its disney too..
